Sunday, January 18, 2009

Those ODD Moments!

Do you EVER tell people the WHOLE Truth? The things you 'think' you would Never say to anyone, but find that you do, and you're either going to get the "WTF" look from the person you are talking to, or.... the "OMG I DO THAT TOO" comment.
(Describing SL to a stranger is like that..*cough*) ya ever get the URGE to do something that makes NO sense, for NO reason, not necessarily for any particular reason, more like you 'momentarily' feel compelled to do something...this doesn't mean it's a GOOD or FUNNY thing, this could be a crazy LOCK YOU UP kinda thing....
so we don' we?
One of my friends once told me that she ran naked through her house in front of her boyfriend (who she is now married too) with a long branch from a tree in between her butt cheeks...LMAO
that's what I mean...things like that! Well that is ONE side of it, eh?
There is also the other side, of "You are not doing it to be silly" like my friend might be doing it because you feel it's appropriate.
Have you ever run through your home, with all your 'housemates' around and just run through the house Screaming "THEY"RE COMING" in a strange LoUd, but shakey voice, with that look of Pure Panic on your face, not to be funny
but because maybe...MAYBE for a moment...just a moment
you almost felt like THEY were coming.
Now who are THEY? i don't would I know that? It was just a Moment where I had felt compelled to do this, I didn't.....I DID twitter it, yep...cuz it made me laugh when I thought about Writing about of those thoughts that you think, for a moment COULD happen and it would really be ALL kinds of Wrong, wouldn't it?
WAY off...yeah you might get locked up.
But....IF i did....I know there would be the look of 'WTF' on my husbands face, and a "WHO" from my 15 yr old Crazy stepchild, and then they would both laugh their asses off......if I acted like it was all a joke.
I could be serious eh?
Pretend I have no clue what they are talking about.
Make think I've totally lost it......
would be great.....but I'de never live it down.
that is my Odd Thought.
I'm done now. I'm going to go finish making this KICK ASS chicken soup, and then I'm going to make Brownies...:) Yep, you got it!

I have an Official Fan Site Now :)

Monday, January 5, 2009


I couldn't be more thrilled to discover my song "Flowers Against My Dress" off my "Certain Kind of Mad" CD has been accepted on one of my favorite Internet Radio Stations.
For once a radio station NOT associated with Second Life (tm) and that has never heard of me prior, has been playing my song.
It's in their rotation and you can click the title of this blog to go directly to their site.
You can request the song (which would be a huge compliment to me) and even comment on the song.
I have two more songs under review with them, and hopefully they'll be added as well.
If you want to request them as well they are
"Don't Let It Die" also off my Certain Kind of Mad cd
and "Teapot" which is off my "Without My Wings" Cd.
You can stream this onto your land in SL if you wish, or just listen.
There are usually about 4000-5000 Listeners at any given time on this station and their audience is constantly growing...
once you listen
you'll understand why they are so popular and growing, their 'handmixed' songs
are total Audio Bliss to my ears, not to mention it's SO inspirational to hear the artists I love, all day.
Jason Miraz. Ray Lamontange (did i spell that right?), Mary Gauthier. Lucinda Williams.
Pink Floyd. Led Zepplin. Rush. Iron and Wine and the list goes on and on.
So I've had some 'great friends' tell me they have heard me on it...and after checking their playlist, I saw that they have played my song a number of times.
So spread the word and keep it up, cuz it's working in a great way
and I have so many of you to thank
for the Love!
-Suzen JueL

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Damn Winter BlueZ

I can't help but sing the blues from time to time, considering we all experience little moments of it, we can all relate. Feeling blue, is only the first course of a multi course meal of emotions that surround many of us this time of year, especially if the whole S.A.D. is part of your life, which it is mine, and it sure can hit like a freight train going down the tracks a bit too fast. Seems to come out of nowhere.
Freezing rain.
Granted, during January it can be a hell of a sunny month, but it's also one of the coldest months of the year here in Minnesota. It's when the roads become sheets of ice and the sun is shining brilliant, teasing me in the sky with it's fire and warmth, while I sit millions of miles below it, never being able to feel it.
I keep getting this funny picture of the person who is trapped in an ice vault, full of windows, and right outside the door is a warm and blazing fire, but the person in the ice vault Just can't reach it.
It's RIGHT THERE, but always out of reach.
Kind of depressing, but such is life.
In a few more month, I'll celebrate yet another year around the sun, and that's when the ice melts and the whole world becomes all fresh n fuzzy.
You can bet I'll be outside with my camera, snapping pictures of every fresh little blade of grass, and the multi coloured dragon flies that fill the hills and forests around my world.
Things get a little stale this time of year. I'm not the WINTER SPORTS kind of person. I don't like being cold. I don't like being hot either. Spring and Fall blaze me up with everything, and the summer bogs me down with intense heats. Winters are my least favorite. While they're beautiful, yes....but to step outside and take that little sniff of scentless air, making your nostrils pinch together...making your back shiver like a terrified puppy....OOO i hate that!
I hate cold car seats (mine has a nice lil seat warmer in it, and thankfully stays parked and happy in my garage) but Shopping is a different story. Super Markets don't have heated underground parking...
Add to this, the dreaded PTSD I experience while driving.
2 horrible accidents that weren't my fault, getting bashed at 70mph by someone who just wasn't paying attention, makes the experience unbearable in the winter ice/snow/slush. I prefer to stay put, walk that treadmill, arrange my life....and when it warms up again, I'll be more than eager to feel the grass under my bare feet, the warm wind on my face, and start the Awesome Garden we plant every year.
the heat is on, my favorite sweatshirt is getting softer and more worn from all the washing and the wear, things pile up around me because I'm just not 'in the spirit' to do much with it. Spring Fever.....OoooOOO I love it, when that first day comes where we can open our window, even for one night, and walk to the mailbox in a t-shirt and jeans. When the snow melts and that brilliant first green pops out....
I'll just keep thinking of that....
They say happiness is something to look forward to, so I'm going to cast my line to March, and keep reeling in the days closer and closer, til I have it in my hands again, and I can sit out on the front steps in a brilliant sun and watch the world Grow again.
But for now, it's just too bad we can't hibernate for 5-6 months and dream the winter off.

Self Portrait

Self Portrait
This is Not a Drawing