Saturday, November 29, 2008

Universal Filters

I am convinced everything we say and do, somehow gets picked up, kind of like a filter online, that picks up just certain words and filters them through the right channels. For example:
I am in a cafe, reading a magazine, and notice a picture of a beautiful reddish gold sunset with two people drinking a specific brand of beer. For some reason the colors fit the Brand Name perfectly and it stoond out to me.
I close the magazine, leave the coffee shop thinking nothing of the magazine picture I saw, thinking nothing of even remembering it. I saw it, I liked it, I forgot about it.
Within a few hours, I am in a liqueur store, to pick up a six pack of Blueberry Lager, my favorite beer, and there is a coupon on the floor, that either fell from someones pocket, or from the bottle itself, of the beer I had seen in the magazine.

Last night, I was looking through a box of books my mom had brought over, books she's borrowed over the years, or ones she thinks I'll enjoy.
Herbal Books, my mom and I share all sorts of great herbal remedies (it's that Indian in our blood *Native American*) so we exchange those books, and various other books...But way on the bottom, I see "LEARN FRENCH" it is my 2nd year french book from High School. I couldn't believe she even had this book, this was .. well, MANY years ago.

Today, I click on a link of someone who is following me in 'Twitter"...the link brings me directly to a website geared towards something I was 'noticing'..."Learn French"...
Now things like this happen A LOT, not just once in a blue moon. Something that I take notice to, or pay particular attention to, something I might talk about that I display a passing interest in, will appear again shortly after the initial thought, presenting itself again to me, as if to say "Hey....-ahem-...over here...LOOK!..i heard you were talking about french in your MIND!" it's as if there is a giant FILTER in the Universe, that filters out specific Observations and Words, Pictures and things you 'take notice too' even if you never give them a 2nd thought...the "Filter" catches it and presents you soon after, with opportunity.
I'm not going to pay to learn french again, but I will be studying it again. I won't be writing a book anytime soon, but I'm being presented with little opportunities to 'go in that direction'.
It's that saying You think it, it will start to happen.
For the past few years, I've been heavily practicing the "Groove and Vibration" that what I begin to do, will begin to happen, and what I "vibe out'' into the Universe, will Attract to me, what I'm looking for.

I'm sure many of you have heard of the "Law of Attraction"...seems a fairly new concept, considering it's been around since time began.
Seems quite Logical, at least to me.
How the hell would most people get what they want in life, if the "Law of Attraction" wasn't true.
You want a job, part time, in town.....eventually you find one, part time, in town...and it's not always EXACTLY what you asked for, but it's almost Unbelievable how Close it is to what you asked for, if not perfect!" Opportunities ALWAYS present themselves.
They don't always happen Exactly like you expect, sometimes there are Big Lessons buried in that awesome thing you wanted. But you always get some form.

Perhaps you ask for a particular car, a certain model, a certain color, year etc......and maybe 3 months later, you get this car, a year older than you wanted, a slightly diff color, but you get's not just that you got a CAR, it's that you got soo Close if not Right on, what you asked for.

It happens with friends, it happens with the lovers that pass through our lives, the friendships that come and go, the people we simply run into for a 1 min passing conversation, someone we see in a Social Networking group, a phrase someone writes, a painting we are attracted to, a song we relate happens Every day, every second.

There are no accidents in life.

Everything has it's purpose, no matter how short lived, it was all for a reason.
And I still believe somehow our thoughts, get 'filtered' and put through this 'web' in life, trickling down and sideways all over the Web Like Universe...and comes back to present itself somehow...letting you know, the Universe is listening to you...and that,'s pretty powerful, isn't it!

Wednesday, November 26, 2008


the above photo .. I've always called her my niece, since she is about the age of most my nephews and nieces, but this is um.....
well, my Grandaughter and she is amazing! I guess it's worth it to kiss kids with colds!

OoOo Here it comes, the Holiday season has come upon all of us, in one way or another. For me it's Cleaning, and I truly Hate cleaning, and as I got on my hands and knees to spread that Murpheys Oil on the hardwood, BOY COULD I TELL I HATE CLEANING, it's been awhile.
I do the regular sweeup up the stuff, maybe spot clean a few spills from time to time, it LOOKS clean, but it's not....cuz underneath the stove, yeah....don't wanna go there, but did.
I washed all the hardwood, steam cleaned WHITE this was a bad idea in the first place...I have 4 stepson, and when we moved into this house we were given the choice of All hardwood, All carpet or a we chose to have Hardwood in Living Room, Dining Room and Kitchen, but the steps and hallway among the other rooms upstairs have carpet, white carpet...with 7 years of footsteps on them from 4 boys (3 have since moved out)...a dog, 3 ferrets and then of course, Other Peoples little two legged Nightmares.

the Point was to get as MUCH clean as possible, PLUS finish the art projects, get the new ones Started, try to finish the last 'tweeking' of the CD, and then....the next 3 days, it's Bright Smiling Chaos when my whole family comes here for the holidays, this includes my 2 Nephews who are still in the single digits and are the most curious, mind boggling, polite kids I've ever encountered.
It's always a sweeet deal to see my lil guys, and even better, the WHOLE family will be here, and You can not imagine how excited I am to see them, as there is a bond that just gets warmer and stronger each time we are together.
Kids make me clean.
Kids are full of germs and it never fails that when I kiss my lil nieces and nephews or my lil grandaughter (no i'm not old enough, but the Universe gave me a beautiful could i refuse?) I get the 24 hour cold, or worse, the one that lasts 7-10 days, and I HATE colds MORE than I hate cleaning.

I have been through the house several times with those great Clorox Disinfectants wiping the light switches, handles of the doors, the railing's for the stairs, every keyboard, mouse and desk, all handles on cupboards, the toilet handle, faucet handles....Oo yeah, I make sure no germs have a moments chance, because being sick means my voice goes to the Monkeys, and since that's my 'career' for the most part, I can't let that happen if at all possible...
Plus I'm a big baby when I get sick, yep, I'm one of those "I want my Mama here to make me chicken soup, and my daddy to buy me 'teen magazines and ice cream"...yeah when I was a kid, that made being sick...tolerable...So now I'm always wanting magazines (Psychology today is my fav...kinda outgrew the teen ones decades ago, haaa)
and 'treats'.

Ok so back to the Origin of this all.....

Thanksgiving is tomorrow, and my house is impossible to make spotless,
But I finished with the help of my awesome 15 yr old and his dad, the amazing dude I married....Now Today, I can almost relax...almost....I look around and see Painted Boxes all over my Living Room Coffee Table, and canvas's painted in various colors piled up against the window...I am an artist, my house shows it... And since all the colors I have used, it all actually Looks Pretty Good in the Living Room...
But I'll have to move them, into the Studio, which is like a small cluttered art gallery/ recording studio...
Various songbooks I've filled up over the decades, CASSETTE TAPES from way way back, Feathers from birds, dead sunflowers, bottles of various roots, oils and balls of hemp string fill up every space.
My art experiments fill the wall, hanging at diff angles, some on canvas, some on paper....This is where i STORE things haaaaa! And this is also where I music, the 'set up' for's a small space, but a very ambient and warm space and my lil nephews Love to come in here and talk in the mic or bang on the 'OTHER guitar' since I don't let them bang on the blue one too much,
Unless I"m holding onto them AND the guitar, haaa.

Am I ready?
Am I in desperate need to see my family?
Will they judge me on how clean my house is?
Will they come here and have unforgettable memories?
absolutely, no doubt, Yes! I guess the one thing important in all this.....Messy is fine, dirty is not.
(unless you're a dirty pirate W!)

Another Important thing...aren't we stressed enough in our lives, than to worry more about a spotless house then how wonderful it will be to be surrounded by what we love, or who we love.

It's all about R E L A X I N G!
So do me one BIG favor?
Take 2 Deep Breathes, close your eyes, and no matter what.....relax.

For those spending the Holiday alone, be sure to enjoy every single thing you do for yourself.

For those Traveling, be safe, and use a hands free device, only idiots talk on their cell without one...The majority of all accidents happen because someone is distracted and thinks the same idiotic thing every time...."Ooo I'm ok, I can drive and talk at the same time on my cell'....
All I can say is Fool.
If you can afford a cell and a car, you can get a handsfree device, so do it.

L A U G H. . .
it relaxes us
it destresses us it raises our spirits it heals :)

Sunday, November 23, 2008

Painted Gift Boxes-Part 1 finis!

CLick the Title of this to see individual gift boxes-pricing
I have been quite busy lately to get these done Before the Holidays, and WOO I did it! Each of these boxes *Gift Boxes* is hand painted in deep, rich colors. Some of the boxes are painted on the inside as well and/or bottoms. Not all are painted inside. You can contact me for details. Clicking on the TITLE of this Will bring you to the site where you can see each box individually.
Colors may vary slightly.
7 x 7 x 3 inches, each box. Now that the holidays are here, you can use them to give your gifts, put your cookies in for the holidays, CD's, Teas, small coffee mugs fit in here, or little bags of coffee beans. Pretty Much anything, your dead hamster, small handguns, or make up! (gotta add my sense of humor, heh). I wish you all a Great Holiday, and I do hope to be mailing these out soon! Just give me your 'bid Price' and remember, there is only One of Each!
-Suzen JueL

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Horton Hears a Who-One Laptop Holds a World

Virtual Cafe at FoxyFlwr's place, one of the Great Pioneer Musicians of Second Life...has taken a bit of a 'vacation' while exploring her world...was hanging out with her at her "Cafe"...I was momentarily fixated on the coffee cup on the table, near the laptop, just because it made me 'feel' that same feeling I would experience had I been at the Local Wi-Fi Cafe here where I live, those little details are what really make the Virtual Experience something that from time to time, I can lose myself in.
Most of us have had the experience of being in a cafe, with people at various tables, laptops propped up, their favorite hot beverage near them, pondering...thinking. Thing is...I used to walk in Cafe's in Minneapolis, or any other city, and see people engaged in chess games, poetry, long conversations about politics, or music, poetry or the local town gossip. Now I look around and see people quietly sitting, engaged in deep thoughts as they look lovingly at their laptops.
However in Second Life (tm) it's a rare site, to see anyone engaged heavily with a virtual laptop, in a virtual cafe, although it's happned, it's rare and it's usually for the Visual of the 3D Experience they are immersing themselves in.
In Second life, we are already Immersed in our laptops/pc/mac...and experience the virtual world thru our 'device of choice'...why would we need to go back into a Virtual would be like standing in the mirror, with another mirror facing that mirror and seeing the Long hallway of endless identical images.
Fun as an experiment, leading no w here.
We ARE immersed in Second Life, engaged in Conversations via Voice Chat, or of course the good old fashioned Text Chats and group chats.
We are surrouned with Virtual Avatars, each one respresenting someone, somewhere else in the world. Long distance, real time conversations with friends from the UK, from Australia, from South of my Mid Western town, to North...Global.
Each avatar representing a different perception on the experience, new shared information on culture, engaging conversations about Politics, while we grab our virtual latte's and carry on lengthy conversations about topics of interest, share ideas, and for us Artists and Indie Musicians we are collaborating on a Global Scale of ideas, and even performing together, from opposite ends of the world.
yeah...the Real Life Cafe's seem to have the lonely feel of quietness, a dozen people in one room, all engaged to a Laptop...but, perhaps they are engaged in a whole world, immersing themselves in multiple conversations with people in places they'll never go, reaching out, networking.
remember the movie by Dr Suess? Horton hears a who?
one little flower at the end of the Elephants trunk
encasing an entire universe.
one little laptop
holds the world.

Saturday, November 8, 2008


11 8 2008

It's sickness like a rock, sinking painted black
it turns like molten lava
it thickens as it turns
expanding into more sickness...
and they wonder what it's about
and they don't understand what that feels like
shove it all down
swallow it with something sweet
the cold ale of darkened crimson
the kind one would find beneath bare feet in the forest
where something bled
and something died.

It's sickness that burns
and the lining of my instinct
and the edges of my intuition saturate themselves in it
and I can 't get rid of it
it blurs the lines of what is and what was and what comes
it's perception with a cracked lens
it's depth where there is no bottom.
Because of it
the walls are closer than I had thought
doors are further than my hand reaches
windows are higher up above my eyes
and I can't get out into the world
because my eyes won't reach the wooden pane of the glass.
Without it, I might be free.

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

Quote from Michael on in comments

"Here's to the crazy ones.
The misfits. The rebels. The trouble-makers. The round heads in the square holes. The ones who see things differently.
They're not fond of rules, and they have no respect for the status-quo. You can quote them, disagree with them, glorify, or vilify them.
But the only thing you can't do is ignore them. Because they change things.
They push the human race forward. And while some may see them as the crazy ones, we see genius.
Because the people who are crazy enough to think they can change the world, are the ones who do. "

Monday, November 3, 2008

Painted Portrait

It was a long weekend at work, which actually gives me a lot of free time to work on art, among other things. So I packed up my giant basket of paints, brushes, oil pastels, charcoal etc...
One of my co-workers came in for a bit on Sunday, and saw that I had all this 'art stuff' spread out over the large dining room table (just like at home haaaa) and she wanted to draw leaves. Meanwhile, she was looking over some photos I had done, and drawings, and commented on a certain photo (on my space page) and I was telling her how I wish I could Paint, ACTUAL PICTURES! Cuz I really do more abstract kinda things, or I do a lot of Ink/Tattoo type drawings. So she said "oooOo You could SO do that!!!" and of course, I said, nooooo..
Because I hadn't challenged myself in DECADES to ever paint like that.
So I felt challenged, I LOVE a good challenge, a good Healthy I put the photograph up in front of me, mixed some colors > > > > > > > > > > > > > and This is what happened.
I like. I'm often a hard critic on my own work, whether it be lyrics I write, chords I play, I'm my WORSE Critic and often feel Like anything can always be better, and of course ANYTHING can always be better, there is always room for improvement, no matter what we do. I finished about an hour or so later....and this is my final result. I absolutely am grateful for the positive feedback I have received from the small handful of people that have seen this. Now of course, you can expect MORE in the 'realm' of new art...since I have discovered, with the right stuff, I can do things I hadn't challenged myself to do in many years if not 'decades' and NO i'm not THaT old, but yes, I am wiser in my years of experience! haa
Thanks for visiting my Blog, and a lil prelude to upcoming Second Life (tm) My CD should be ready soon, and I have a surprise for anyone that wants to order the physical Cd...i'll tell you that when it's in the 'works'.
Peace n Love n Stars :)

Self Portrait

Self Portrait
This is Not a Drawing