Damn Winter BlueZ

I can't help but sing the blues from time to time, considering we all experience little moments of it, we can all relate. Feeling blue, is only the first course of a multi course meal of emotions that surround many of us this time of year, especially if the whole S.A.D. is part of your life, which it is mine, and it sure can hit like a freight train going down the tracks a bit too fast. Seems to come out of nowhere.
IT IS COLD.
Freezing rain.
Granted, during January it can be a hell of a sunny month, but it's also one of the coldest months of the year here in Minnesota. It's when the roads become sheets of ice and the sun is shining brilliant, teasing me in the sky with it's fire and warmth, while I sit millions of miles below it, never being able to feel it.
I keep getting this funny picture of the person who is trapped in an ice vault, full of windows, and right outside the door is a warm and blazing fire, but the person in the ice vault Just can't reach it.
It's RIGHT THERE, but always out of reach.
Kind of depressing, but such is life.
In a few more month, I'll celebrate yet another year around the sun, and that's when the ice melts and the whole world becomes all fresh n fuzzy.
You can bet I'll be outside with my camera, snapping pictures of every fresh little blade of grass, and the multi coloured dragon flies that fill the hills and forests around my world.
Things get a little stale this time of year. I'm not the WINTER SPORTS kind of person. I don't like being cold. I don't like being hot either. Spring and Fall blaze me up with everything, and the summer bogs me down with intense heats. Winters are my least favorite. While they're beautiful, yes....but to step outside and take that little sniff of scentless air, making your nostrils pinch together...making your back shiver like a terrified puppy....OOO i hate that!
I hate cold car seats (mine has a nice lil seat warmer in it, and thankfully stays parked and happy in my garage) but Shopping is a different story. Super Markets don't have heated underground parking...
Add to this, the dreaded PTSD I experience while driving.
2 horrible accidents that weren't my fault, getting bashed at 70mph by someone who just wasn't paying attention, makes the experience unbearable in the winter ice/snow/slush. I prefer to stay put, walk that treadmill, arrange my life....and when it warms up again, I'll be more than eager to feel the grass under my bare feet, the warm wind on my face, and start the Awesome Garden we plant every year.
Meanwhile
the heat is on, my favorite sweatshirt is getting softer and more worn from all the washing and the wear, things pile up around me because I'm just not 'in the spirit' to do much with it. Spring Fever.....OoooOOO I love it, when that first day comes where we can open our window, even for one night, and walk to the mailbox in a t-shirt and jeans. When the snow melts and that brilliant first green pops out....
I'll just keep thinking of that....
They say happiness is something to look forward to, so I'm going to cast my line to March, and keep reeling in the days closer and closer, til I have it in my hands again, and I can sit out on the front steps in a brilliant sun and watch the world Grow again.
But for now, it's just too bad we can't hibernate for 5-6 months and dream the winter off.

Things I will Bring into the New year

No more painted faces, no more sugar coated words. I hate sugar.
I like raw.
No more indirect comments.
I'm bold.
I like this.
No more ignoring my mistakes.
I like my mistakes. They're mine. I own them. They are powerful!
No more bullshit covered phone calls. I prefer just not to answer.

More laughter.
Why hold back?
More hugs.
They're worth ever squeeze.
More seeds to plant.
I like flowers, and I get great satisfaction watching them grow in my world.
More photos, less worrying about the light. Just DO IT!

Today isn't the first day of a new beginning.
Every day is the first day of the beginning.
You can't end something you never started.
Observation will get you everywhere,.
More doing, less talking. More action, less thinking.
Procrastination means not doing.

Last Minnesota Blizzard of 2008

If you haven't experienced the Blizzards, the one inch or more of white fluffy stuff per hour, then you probably haven't been to MinneSNOWta!
I know when the west coast gets this, they shut down. Drivers are restricted, warnings go out like red lights NOT to drive.
Here we go...this is Winter here in Minnesota! Canada, Michigan, Wisconsin, Alaska, Iowa....we're kind of used to this...
I won't drive in it. Don't be calling me if you drive into the ditch! You want to take that chance, you better have blankets and water, food and BOOTS packed with you, because you might have a long walk home! That is, IF you can walk home!
Can't tell you how many stories we hear on the news where someone 'thought' they could walk home, only to be blown off the highway by another driver who dared drive in it...or even worse, you die in your own back yard trying to find the front door during a white out....those are horrible!

2009 we're gonna bring it on with another 4-6 inches of snow today, and hopefully then...we are done.

The best thing though, is the Winter Thunderstorms. They're rare and they are beautious to see the sky light up behind big fat white fluffy flakes, to hear the th under and no rain falling...just the quiet silence of the flakey stuff falling from our Minnesota sky!

Peace to all and the BEST To you in 2009.
Bring in your Best Learned Lessons of 2008, into the New Year with you. And if you don't think you've made any mistakes, I bet your friends will tell you otherwise! (you can always learn from theirs too, because you know damn well when you make a mistake they are all saying "THANK GOD THAT WASN'T ME!"
More to come
peace
-Suzen